The next 3 days were spent questioning everything in the relationship. I had so many unanswered questions like "Did he ever love me at all?" "How did it start to turn so bad?" "What went wrong?" "What if I had done things differently?". Countless possibilities and scenarios were running through my mind, I couldn't close my eyes without picturing the breakup. I didn't sleep for 2 days and my eyes were swollen from so much crying, it didn't even seem possible to have anymore tears left. I was constantly fighting the urge to call him to take me back, or even to just explain the sudden decision to part our separate ways. It was one of the worst times of my life.
I was miserable and didn't like the girl I saw in the mirror with puffy eyes and unkempt hair. Then it suddenly dawned on me that he no longer wanted to be in a relationship with me. For whatever reason, he broke everything we had and our relationship was over.
Searching for explanations would not give me closure, acceptance of the situation would. I could go on guessing why he did not want to be with someone as awesome as me. But the truth is that I WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IS IN HIS MIND IF HE DOES NOT TELL ME. And why am I wasting my time on a man who does not want to be with me anyway ? Every moment I spent being pathetic trying to win him back, I could be doing fun things, meeting new people and chasing my dreams.
I was lucky to pull out the STOP sign in my self destruction before the New Year. I decided to start 2011 afresh and turn the breakup into the best thing of my life. Determined to live my best life, I choose to see what an amazing person I am everyday.
Bunny Breakup is a girl after breaking up who lives to the fullest. Confident, smart, beautiful. I believe there is a man who will love me unconditionally, make me exceptionally happy and want to spend the rest of his life with me.
Bouncing my way back from heartbreak. You can too.
