What Happens When You See The Guy You Least Want To See When You Least Expect It

It's been 1.5 years since the eventful breakup when i called him and asked: "i was wondering if this means we have broken up?" One word answer: "YES" me:"ok thank you" Most epic phone conversation of my life. To think two and a half years of sweat and emotions would end that way. My anger has decreased over time. With the help of alpha alignment i'm now much calmer when thinking about him. I certify that time heals all wounds for it has been the case for me. but i still wasn't prepared to see him though so much time has passed. he's still blocked on my facebook and we've yet to contact each other. Call me petty but i'm not ready to be friends with him yet. So i was sitting at Starbucks talking on the phone and there i see him crossing the road towards me. I start swearing into the phone and look away so he wouldn't notice me. I'm not looking my best as i just finished a facial. He probably didn't recognise me. He walks down past me, further down the row of tables he sits down with this young girl. She looks sweet. And then as i'm observing them from the corner of my eye, hoping she's a client or colleague of his.. he gets up from the seat, bends over for a kiss as he gets up to order a drink. (i can almost feel my heart cringing as i'm typing this) I used to tell him that i wouldn't feel sad if he left me for an 'uglier' girl (obviously i was confident of myself). I saw a picture of his new girlfriend on facebook when they first changed their relationship status and didn't think she was much of a beauty. But seeing her in person, although from a distance, she's actually pretty and sweet looking. It hurt to see he had found another nice girl and chosen her over me, though i was secretly pleased to see he had put on weight. Lucky me ! haha Now, as i spend some time to reflect... i'll type that i have moved further on from that broken relationship and learnt even more about myself from this. Though we didn't even exchange glances.. i feel something has changed in the way i feel about him. I can now say that i'm slightly happy that he has found happiness or at least more happiness. I'm glad that we were part of each other's life. Thank you WY for all the wonderful memories. Without you, I would not be who I am today. Stronger, more self loving and knowing better what i want in a partner. I post this here as evidence that it is possible to forgive someone who hurt you and love again. It took me one and a half years to muster the courage to profess my thanks to the world through the internet. He may never see it, and I may never tell it to his face but i know i have taken another small step to opening my heart. I urge anyone who is angry or hurting over an ex to consider the possibility of getting past it all. The story of what he/she did to cause you pain. Imagine a life where it doesn't bother you anymore. Imagine a life free from carrying around that history. What would your life be like if you were happier? Would it be more fun and filled with adventure? You don't have to do it all now. Heck, I didn't. It took me one and a half years, baby steps all along the way. I'm not entirely there yet but i know i'm moving forward, surely.

What Will It Take To Accept How Good You Are And Be Proud Of It

Friday night, i was drinking with some friends and on the way home, i got a bit emotional. I started crying (i'm a sad drunk sometimes) thinking .. "i'm good right, why would someone breakup with me?". It wasn't so much that i missed him. Now thinking back, it was my subconscious mind revealing my inner thoughts in that drunken state more than anything else. Today i received encouraging words from a new friend. Who would know that some squiggly characters sent on whatsapp could shake me and make me to really think ! When am i going to really see how good i am and allow myself to shine brighter than anybody else and be proud of it? When am i going to stop trying to take care of other people's feelings and speak up for what is right for me? When am i going to acknowledge myself as the wonderful being with so much to share with the world ? When will other people's approval ever be enough for me to love and approve of myself? WHO ARE THESE OTHER PEOPLE ANYWAY !!!??!?! A stranger emailed me about a year ago saying he stumbled on my blog and found it a good read. He sent me encouraging words and i didn't even reply him. One of my closest friends broke up with her long distance German boyfriend and said my blog and stories on dealing with breakup was very comforting to her and that she really appreciated knowing that someone out there went through the same thing and knows how much it hurts. I promised her to write more, but didn't. My sister says i write very good stuff on this blog. My new friend said this blog is relatable, honest and a fun read. So when am i going to tell myself that I'm good enough? That my experiences are valuable and can really help people!? I was praised at work today and all i could think of was "Be humble, don't make the others feel bad" When my colleagues congratulate me at work, i think to myself "don't be cocky" so i say "it was luck, i happened to be at the right place at the right time" And it hit me... what would it take to let my true self shine? and not be ashamed and not worry what other people think and not worry that others would be put to shame because of me. True story: "People don't like you to be humble. People like you to be successful" My sister said so and i believe her. So the next time i'm praised, i will do it differently, i will proudly smile and say thank you for i have worked hard and did my best. I want to be an inspiration. No longer am i going to feel bad for having failed relationships. No longer will i worry what you think or interpret from what i do, say or type. All that matters is what I feel about ME. You can deal with that and love me for all that i am, embrace the parts of me that make you happy, reject me from your life. It doesn't really matter because i am being honest with who i really am. All this while, i've had the motto that "if you don't want me, it's your loss" Today i feel it even more strongly in my heart that i am an amazing wonderful being. I have alot of love to share, alot of fun to have and alot of life to live. Let's enjoy this adventure together and let our lives be filled with abundance and prosperity !! Thank you to all the eyeballs out there that have helped Bunny Breakup Blog generate more energy. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know. We're beautifully walking one day at a time !