What Will It Take To Accept How Good You Are And Be Proud Of It

Friday night, i was drinking with some friends and on the way home, i got a bit emotional. I started crying (i'm a sad drunk sometimes) thinking .. "i'm good right, why would someone breakup with me?". It wasn't so much that i missed him. Now thinking back, it was my subconscious mind revealing my inner thoughts in that drunken state more than anything else. Today i received encouraging words from a new friend. Who would know that some squiggly characters sent on whatsapp could shake me and make me to really think ! When am i going to really see how good i am and allow myself to shine brighter than anybody else and be proud of it? When am i going to stop trying to take care of other people's feelings and speak up for what is right for me? When am i going to acknowledge myself as the wonderful being with so much to share with the world ? When will other people's approval ever be enough for me to love and approve of myself? WHO ARE THESE OTHER PEOPLE ANYWAY !!!??!?! A stranger emailed me about a year ago saying he stumbled on my blog and found it a good read. He sent me encouraging words and i didn't even reply him. One of my closest friends broke up with her long distance German boyfriend and said my blog and stories on dealing with breakup was very comforting to her and that she really appreciated knowing that someone out there went through the same thing and knows how much it hurts. I promised her to write more, but didn't. My sister says i write very good stuff on this blog. My new friend said this blog is relatable, honest and a fun read. So when am i going to tell myself that I'm good enough? That my experiences are valuable and can really help people!? I was praised at work today and all i could think of was "Be humble, don't make the others feel bad" When my colleagues congratulate me at work, i think to myself "don't be cocky" so i say "it was luck, i happened to be at the right place at the right time" And it hit me... what would it take to let my true self shine? and not be ashamed and not worry what other people think and not worry that others would be put to shame because of me. True story: "People don't like you to be humble. People like you to be successful" My sister said so and i believe her. So the next time i'm praised, i will do it differently, i will proudly smile and say thank you for i have worked hard and did my best. I want to be an inspiration. No longer am i going to feel bad for having failed relationships. No longer will i worry what you think or interpret from what i do, say or type. All that matters is what I feel about ME. You can deal with that and love me for all that i am, embrace the parts of me that make you happy, reject me from your life. It doesn't really matter because i am being honest with who i really am. All this while, i've had the motto that "if you don't want me, it's your loss" Today i feel it even more strongly in my heart that i am an amazing wonderful being. I have alot of love to share, alot of fun to have and alot of life to live. Let's enjoy this adventure together and let our lives be filled with abundance and prosperity !! Thank you to all the eyeballs out there that have helped Bunny Breakup Blog generate more energy. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know. We're beautifully walking one day at a time !