Time Heals All Wounds But Never Erases History

You can't change history. No matter how much you pine and whine for him to come back, a breakup is still a breakup. Even if you have healed and the hurt has gone away, or you still can't bear to face him, nothing will change the fact that this person was part of your past. You shared intimate moments with each other, bared your soul and had many memories together during the x amount of time you were in the relationship.

It might be good at the time to maintain distance between each other so that you can appropriately deal with no longer being in a relationship together. But to swing from being so loving, to totally axe contact with him forever must be a painful thing.

Taking a more simplistic view, a breakup is like losing contact with a really close friend. Maybe he hurt you, tore your life apart and you wish so much to forget he ever existed and betrayed you because you could never forgive him. But just like a long lost friend, he will never be truly deleted from your life. Those memories, good or bad have left footprints in your life. They led you to where you are today, grown from those experiences and become tougher and stronger.

As much as I would like to pretend I never was in a relationship with him, I cannot deny that I learnt a lot about myself through that breakup. Those lessons would never have be taught to me if it didn't happen. So, while I still don't want to face him yet, I hope that one day I will no longer be scarred by the memories and hurt. That i will be able to have a decent conversation without being overwhelmed by anger of deceit and mistrust, but instead appreciation and gratitude for how far i have come since that breakup.

Time heals all wounds but never erases history. I want to be able to see him as a friend and an equal instead of someone to fear and block out because cutting out someone from your life can be a painful situation. Even just on a subconscious level, I know my mind works hard to try and remove him from ever being in my life. I look forward to the day when this is no longer the case.

I hope that you too will strive to be back on talking terms with your ex if it has been too painful to maintain contact until now. One day, you will decide to stop hurting yourself by cutting him out of your life. I just feel that it is nicer to treat someone like a friend than an enemy (no matter how detestable).